Thank you for everything. Thrillah.

Im sorry, i cant bring myself to delete this website, maybe in a year when you have forgotten about me, it will stop renewing and eventually stop. I'm still so hooked onto you, i wish i ended things different and i wish i approached everything differently, then just maybe, just maybe id still have the oppurtunity to hug you and baby you as my own

My mind keeps replaying the first night we had, the lovely memories, the call at night, the accidental confession the accidental i love you, the moment you confirmed what we are, i didnt tell you but i cried that night, out of happiness, because i finall attained the girl i wanted for so long, i jumped up and down i swung my legs, anything becuase of happiness.

I still find it so harsh that love for me has disappeared completely, but with your reasons its understanable why, everytime we would have a arugment, i would hope that, its okay, couple argue, we will get through this, i will still be able to kiss her cute lips and her cute nose and play and brush her hair like we all planned to do. Im sorry for everything my love.

Oh how i wish we could still be together, in forms of cope ive left all games and social media, just as a attempt to forget you, i hope life treats you well, and I hope you find someone less pathetic than me. I cant even bring myself to play roblox or listen to music anymore, everything reminds me of you, and it just hurts so much, i wouldnt wish this pain on anyone, the pain knowing that the woman you love will no longer text you ever again, and that it ended a lonely unreciprocated love.

I know i didnt help with your mental health as much, it seemed like i sapped all the love away from our relationships, but i was trying to change, i was trying my hardest my love, but it was unfair of me, unfair of me to push these onto you, when your struggling to deep yourself. I wont be here for you anymore, even if i wanted to, hopefully you find someone else who can hear your feelings and comfort you, because i lose that role all together. You told me that you'll move on after 6 months, and im so psychotic im like, 6 months to get her back, but that was when there was love. Dont let me hold you back from finding someone whos more husband like.

I hope your 18th Birthday goes amazing, 18 years of your life like holy moly. I know how you feel and maybe you'll be sad, maybe disappointed with the life youve had. But dont be unfair on yourself my love, you are trying your absolute best, and i recognise that and if it means anything im so immensely proud of you. I hope debut goes well too, i know how annoying it is, and i know how tiresome its going to be for you, i know how your parents are, but irregardless of how it turns out, im so so so immensely proud of you, because you took so much time to plan, make the leaflet and everything, without anyones help. You are an amazing woman, and you were an even better girlfriend. You got it Belanjoi. I dont think i can move on, at least not this year. But i have unblocked you, in just the hope that you text me one day. Im using this as a means to rant becuase you know how i am mentally alone here. But you dont worry about me anymore. its sweet that you do even as a friend. And i hope life isnt as harsh on you as it goes fowards.